In my calendar today "Meeting with Johanna" was booked. Unfortunately, I did exactly what you absolutely should not do. I ignored that meeting and did something that I felt was more urgent. I tried to catch up and tick off things on my long to do list instead. Now I'm sitting here at night wondering how I could have been so stupid. That to do list will always be there, just with slightly different content from day to day. I would never ignore and disregard a meeting with someone else if it is booked in my calendar, so why did I not prioritise the meeting with myself today?
I really need time to breathe, to just be Johanna, because if I don't get that, everything else doesn´t matter. It's so important to have time to check in with yourself and think about whether you're on the right track. If you're following the goals you've set or if you've changed direction and are heading in a different direction. Or even worse, you realise you're stomping along or just going round in circles. If you do not prioritise not meetings with yourself at times and choose to just drive on or do something else instead, it will always catch up with you sooner or later.
I also need to find a place where I can boost my energy. I haven't found that place yet. It may take some time. Usually I find these places out in nature, in a place where I can be alone. It should be a beautiful place and I'm sure there are many such places around where I live, but I haven't found one yet and I'm starting to feel it. I haven't thought about how important it was for me to go out to Rancho or Shoreline when I lived in Silicon Valley. But it was where I boosted my energy before we moved. Now I'm going to combine "Meeting Johanna" with trying to find a beautiful place in my neighbourhood. Though that will have to be next week. Because now it's the weekend and it's family focus. But next week it will definitely be at least one "Intensive Meeting with Myself" because I need that and the family needs that.
Thought of the day:
When was the last time you had an appointment with yourself?
This article is part of The 50 day challenge, where I challenge myself to write an article a day for 50 days! The articles can be about anything, short or long, but I can't miss a single day!